Play Night

Having ended up staying over for an extended period of time due to the other having a lot of struggles with his injury, Sharaku was now stuck entertaining himself at the demon's place until everything got cleared up. It was his 4th night here now, and he was...not sleeping again. This honestly probably shouldn't be a thing, but sadly it was. Perhaps it was a force of habit? He did stay up at nights sometimes because his work was just easier to get done that way. More quiet and peace for thinking. Some days though, his body decided that no sleep was the go to even when he did not have any real need to be staying awake. Ah well. It didn't really cause him any issues so far, so he just rolled with it for the most part. The one problem it brought though, was the fact that he had a whole night to himself since he was the only one awake. Which brings the question of what to do with the time....

...and that is why he was currently sitting cross-legged on the sofa (also shirtless for some reason, despite it being winter), frowning at the TV, attempting to play an Assassin's Creed game (which he picked out more or less randomly, since he wasn't familiar with many games)...at approximately 3:30 in the morning. Beautiful, really. Hopefully though, he wouldn't accidentally disturb the other much. Would be sad to have a whoops moment.

The injury did indeed prove to be more annoying than he had first thought. The first few night was rough forcing the demon to actually go to the doctor to get a higher dosage for painkillers. From there life had been more or less manageable even if having to take off meant his sleeping schedule was a bit out of whack. He was up during the day and a good ways into the night, but he always managed to go to sleep before Sharaku who had decided to stay with him and assist him during this healing process. It was odd at first accepting his help, but over the course of time the demon came to the point where the feeling wasn’t as bothersome anymore. The first sign of this truth and acceptance came on the 2nd day a few hours after noon time. The demon had come out of the bathroom and after being the most of the day without his collar he wanted it back on. Problem was in order to do he would have to stretch in a fashion that would only agitate his recovering side. For a while he had simply stared at the collar debating and then grabbing the familiar weight, he had brought it back into the living room and asked the other to put it on him….a request he hadn’t made to anyone in a long time. The collar… in the past it was a sign of ownership and after being saved it had become a sign of the deepest of trust. After years of not allowing anyone to collar him, he finally broke it starting with Merk first, who he saw as family and now Sharaku who he saw more as a trusted friend. With a simple action, the demon said alot and if they had spoken about the other would know the impact of such a move.

Either way, the demon seemed to become easier to manage after this event, trusting the other absolutely to take care of him while he rested. It was odd submitting, but once he got the hang of it, he found the attention a bit nice...though not nice enough to cause him to take advantage of the other. If there was something he could do and not end up hurting then he would...Though his workload was low to say the least giving him amply time to chill and do other things. Like fight with the computer and get things squared away for their trip to Japan. So despite having to stay down, he did manage to stay productive all the same, so no big loss there.

In any case, the days passed peacefully enough and before he knew it a 4th day and night had come. His injury was getting better all the while the pain more of an annoying throb than anything else at this point he still had a bit more to go before he was back on his feet, but even so the demon was glad that for once he could sleep easier. He had stayed up as long as he could crashing around 11 as he left the other in the living room. A thing that was not uncommon since the guy tended to outlast him in staying awake. However, a few hours later when he woke up due to having to go to the bathroom, the demon at first didn’t notice the TV was on as he drifted still asleep from the bedroom to the bathroom. It wasn’t until he had come out and woke a bit that he paused in the open space of the mini hall and blinked sleepily at the light on the wall as sounds finally began to compute in his ears. Neh? The guy was still up?

Curious, the demon would shift his weight and take the few steps necessary to peek into the living room and yup. Sharaku was still up playing a game of some sort it seemed. Heh. How amusing, the demon thought as he watched the other for a few seconds debating about climbing into bed again or not as his tail flicked lightly. Much like the other, he wasn’t wearing a shirt. Just a pair of light black pants to keep him cool at night despite it being winter. The only other article he wore was the familiar black choker that had a simple silver cross on it that he wore at all times unless at work or taking a shower. That aside, he would find himself smiling a bit as he rubbed his left arm with his free hand as he shifted in his spot and headed out into the living room.

“No sleep again?” the demon would ask softly as he moved over to the sofa and settled down in the free spot for now. Blinking sleepily he would look at the TV his eyes narrowing to bring what was on screen into focus.

‘’Morning?’’, he would answer to being addressed absentmindedly, not quite running through what was he even being asked just yet as he proceeded to stab off the last enemy on the screen before finally blinking a few times and glancing at the other, then at the clock and then back at the guy. ‘’Wait no, it isn’t yet.’’, he would huff. ‘’Well, I’m obviously sleeping, can’t you see?’’, he would comment in a slightly sarcastic tone as he shook his head with mild amusement. ‘’You not going back to bed?’’ It was still pretty early to be up and about already, and it wasn’t like he couldn’t make it without the company.

The demon would snort lightly at the morning, his eyes watching the screen as the other made a kill. "Mmm. It is still morning in a way. Unless you count 3 something am as night still." Just because it was still dark out didn't necessarily mean it wasn't morning...well at least by his standards that is. The other's standard might be different. "Well no. I am pretty much a blind bat here, so I asked," the demon would respond back easily enough to the other, his sleepy smirk and laid back tone a sign he was not being serious about the matter at all. As for the question...

The demon would shift slightly in his spot as he flicked his tail lightly against the sofa, his eyes blinking slowly at the matter. "Maybe in a bit, but for now I am just going to chill here." He probably wouldn't last long and while he understood the other didn't need company, it didn't change the fact that the demon would stay for now. He was a bit too comfortable to bother getting up for the time being.

‘’The majority of the population is likely sleeping right now. If that doesn’t mean it’s night, then I don’t know what does.’’ What would even be night then? For most people, morning probably didn’t really start until at least 5-6 AM. At least, that’s what he’d guess. To each their own though? ‘’Feeling enlightened now?’’, he would snort lightly. But yes, he was indeed not sleeping. As far as he was aware, which ought to be enough of a proof in this case.

He would just blink. ‘’Why?’’ He honestly wasn’t even sure why the guy came over in the first place. Could just be chilling in bed, rather than coming over and then going back to bed ‘in a bit’. Whenever that was supposed to be.

"Well that is true, but still consider it morning myself," the demon would hum as he tilted his head lightly to the side. He suppose 3:30 am or 4:00 am could be considered night time still. It was usually his bed time anyway, so maybe that was right though he considered anything with am after it morning...so hmm. Maybe it was just a difference in interpreting time or something. Ah well.

"Heh. Very." The demon would give a slight smirk back. He had come to the realization that the other wasn't one to go to bed early and it wasn't like what happened now was the first time either. Even so the demon liked to poke at him a bit about it because why not? It was all good fun anyway.

That aside, golden orbs would drift over to the other as the demon raised an eyebrow sleepily. "Because I want to? You make it seem like there is a problem with me sitting here. What are you plotting?" He would give the other a suspicious look as his eyes narrowed and his ears folded slightly; however, there was no hostility or threats present. His behavior was chilled and just a tad playful despite his sleepiness.

‘’Then what is night for you?’’ Having it be anything with AM did not even make sense. That would mean 12:01 AM was morning even though it was just a minute after midnight. Personally, he based it mostly on what was the typical sleep time or so. Approximately at least.

He would just hum at the following comment, not having much more to say for the moment unless the other wanted to extend that one somehow. When it came to what was said after though, he would shake his head. ‘’Nothing? I was just wondering why, considering that you said you’ll probably go back to bed in a bit, in which case you could have stayed chilling there in the first place instead of dragging yourself here.’’ It was honestly just a simple question. He wasn’t trying to imply anything by it.

"Typically from about 5 pm - 12: 30 am. Might just be me that thinks that way though." He honestly wouldn't be surprised if he was the only one that thought like that. Maybe the world did base it on sleep patterns, but him? Nope. Ah well.

In any case, it seemed one topic would automatically go down ending with the other's hum. The demon didn't see the need to extend the subject and even if he did he was in no state to start speaking deep on matters. His sleepy brain would go off the deep end alright, but probably not in a way the other would expect or have fun with. It was hard to say. His mind wandered to strange and nonsensical things when not properly awake, so it could come off like drunken speech or highly entertaining depending on the situation. In any case, the demon's playful air would end with the next statement as he hummed a bit at that one. It seemed the other didn't take or get the joke. Ah well. "Well...I could, but I would just toss about in bed and eventually come up here anyway when i couldn't go back to sleep right away. Besides...it is kind of nice to have someone else here to at least chill with during this time." He liked the company and would sure miss it when they separated once he was healed...so he suppose he could enjoy it while he could.

He would shrug slightly. ‘’Well, I would definitely not tell someone good night at 5 PM. I’d think it just evening until at least 8-9 PM. And considering that 12 AM is even called midnight, 30 minutes after that being morning already sounds way too soon to me.’’ If it’s the ‘middle’ of the night, then it should probably still be at least a few more hours until morning from it, no? It was likely named that for a reason. And he would think that a lot of people would think he grew a second head if he wished someone a good morning at 2 AM or so. Unless they were the type of person who always woke up that early to go to work or such and technically had it as their ‘morning’.

In any case…no, he didn’t particularly get the joke. He had been more or less serious with his original question, and had he turned it into jokes, would he even get his answer? ‘’How do you know you wouldn’t fall asleep?’’ The other didn’t seem to be that highly awake anyway, and there’s no saying until you’ve really tried. He would snort. ‘’I bet you just came over because you saw I was still awake.’’ Was he wrong about that?

"Mmm. That's right. That is still evening. 7:30 pm or 8:00 pm is probably night. Like when it starts getting dark. As for midnight. That is strange spot of time, but I still think it early morning in a fashion even if I end up typically going to bed around 4 or so am on a work day." Perhaps there was some reasoning behind the naming of that hour. Or maybe it was named because it was a transition stage from night to morning. Or perhaps cause it was the middle of the clock. It was hard to say.

That aside, despite the light playfulness and joke, the demon would've given an answer to the question whether or not the other had played along or not. He was not functional enough to derail things completely and even if he was it wouldn't have been that bad in the end. Anyway....

"Well there is a chance I would've gone to sleep again, but I doubt it. I typically roll about after waking up unless I am dead tired. It would've taken a while regardless." And no he wasn't super awake, but then again...it took him almost four hours to wake up fully on a normal day so yeah. As for that comment, the demon grinned sheepishly at that one. "Well I won't deny you are part of the reason   yes." The other being he honestly didn't want to get back in the bed at the moment, so sofa it was.

‘’It starts getting dark at different times depending on the season though. Either way, I can’t see midnight as morning. When you talk with someone about getting up in the morning or such, no one’s going to think you mean around 1 AM or the like. Everyone will most likely assume somewhere between 5-8 AM, approximately. I’m pretty sure for most it is night until at least 4 in the morning if not 5, so I have no reason to call it otherwise. Even if I myself stay up all night at times.’’ His own schedule didn’t really affect his view of day periods. He was going by what would actually be useful for him when he needed to talk about the day/night. Makes for easier communication rather than always having to explain that you actually mean like 2 AM when you say morning. He liked his things simple in at least some areas.

He would raise an eyebrow. ‘’So instead you gave up on even trying? Aren’t you going to be tired during the day then?’’ He wasn’t sure about the guy’s sleeping habits exactly, but this didn’t seem like something the other did every night…so, he had to at least ask. Frowning at the TV a bit, he would hit the pause button on the game for now, setting the controller down on the nearby table before shifting to poke the guy in the arm. ‘’And what do you plan to do now?’’

"Well that is true and maybe it just how I view things. I suppose for simplicity sake though we can just agree to 5 am being morning and 7 the start of night time. Or however, it works to make sure we are on the same page there." He honestly didn't care too much about specifics as longs they were talking more or less about the same time frame.

That aside the demon would raise a hand to cover a yawn before chuckling. "Do you want me to go back to the bed?" he would ask looking over at the other amused how he was poking into this matter so. He didn't exactly expect to be poked at because of this. Not that it was bothering him, but he had to wonder if it was really a bother to the other. Was he intruding on alone time or something? That aside he would shake his head slightly. "I dunno. When I get sleepy is random. I can have a full night's rest and still end up dozing during day time hours, so I a small moment of lost sleep isn't going to change anything." Sometimes he was full and energized all day and could carry on way into the night on a few hours of sleep and other days he could sleep well at night and still be wanting a nap. It was just the way his body worked.

In any case, he would become quiet for bit, blinking a bit at the screen as he watched the images there until the other decided to pause the game and poke him. Looking down at the spot that was poked and then up at the other the demon would give the other a sleepy look for a bit as he spoke. "Well I could just watch you play the game until I fall asleep again or," the demon would pause as he shifted in his spot to move across to the other. He would stop at his side looking up at him for a bit before resettling and for the moment just attempting to lean against him. "I could just snuggle with ya and talk for a bit. You know being the big distraction because oh so jealous of the game getting your attention." The end part was a joke though. He could care less what the other was paying attention to at the moment. As long as he wasn't completely ignored without cause, he was fine.

“I guess. I don't really care either way. I was just saying.“ Besides, how many times were they going to say morning/night without the other not knowing the current time or being unable to simply look it up? It probably honestly didn't matter much.

He would shrug. “That is on you. I just don't want you to have a reason to complain about being tired later.“ It wouldn't be his fault that the guy didn't get his sleep at that point. Plus he simply didn't want to encourage the guy to stay up just because of him. He was fine even on his own, and disrupting someone else's sleep wasn't his goal here.

Eh? He would kind of just blink there. “You know, I don't particularly care about the game. I just picked something random so that I would have what to do during the night. I don't even really know what I am doing.“ He knew very little about games. It was just something to pass time with when he needed to.

"Fair enough," was all the demon said as he chuckled lightly at the time matter. Despite trying to get more or less on the same page with the matter, he wasn't asking the other to change his ways. They were both intelligent beings so even if they viewed the technical side differently that didn't mean they wouldn't be able to understand or figure out what the other meant when they said morning or what not.

Timing aside though, the demon would hum a bit at the next part as he nodded. "Meh. If I get sleepy, I'll just take a nap or something. No biggie." And it really wasn't. If he got tired later, he would just excuse himself or doze on the sofa or something. The guy didn't have to worry about him being at fault for the demon wanting to stay up or anything because honestly moving sleeping/resting spots were not unusual for the demon normally.

In any case, it seemed that the demon was allowed to lean against the other since he wasn't pushed away or anything of that matter. In fact, he took notice that the other didn't even tense. Well that was nice and a small note the demon placed at the back of his mind as he rested his head against the other's shoulder sleepily for a few moments before shifting a bit to look up at him.

"Mmm. They are good ways to pass time with I admit that and if that is the case then I suppose I can be the center of attention for a bit," the demon would say with a smirk before he moved for now to just wrap one arm around the others as he rested his head against the other again, his right ear twitching a bit as he rested and stared at the TV. "Though how do you not know what you are doing. The game tells you where it wants you to go and such." It had a map and objectives so unless you went off the path you couldn't really get lost...or was he missing something here?

He would raise an eyebrow slightly. “Do you do things that way even when you have work and all that?“ You can't always just take a nap or whatever when you feel tired and even less so when it's your own fault that you ended up that way. Or in general. Extra rest can be a luxury at times.

He would half shrug. “Maybe it's because I don't really understand the game anyway. Nor care too much for the matter. I just needed a distraction from my own mind. That's all it really is.“ He didn't care to beat the game or anything like that. It was just there since he needed something to keep his attention on. “Anyway, what do you want from me?“ He couldn't move much without pushing the guy off of him in their current position, and he wasn't sure what kind of attention was the demon even after anyhow. Might as well just ask.

"I don't nap too much unless I do it during lunch break or something and that is if I am so tired I cannot push through without one. I can switch the schedule to a different shift though, but I don't do it unless I honestly can't push through the sleep. I typically keep going even when tired if I alert enough to do so. Otherwise nap time is reserved for when I am off. As for getting up and settling elsewhere during the night... Yes, this is normal for us and there are some days it would be best I be in bed, but nope on the sleep or being in the bed." The demon would say blinking sleepily as he remained where he was. As for what he heard next, the demon would hum a bit at that one.

"Ah. An escape from the mind. That is sometimes good if you have various things up there to bother you." Though a game could not distract the demon from his own thoughts when they decided to go their own way. He'd more likely sit in silence concentrating on the thoughts or write rather then do something such as play a game or what not when the thoughts were at the front of his mind. Nothing else would be able to appease him or take his attention away. That was how crazy they could get.

Speaking of attention, while the demon was joking about the center of attention it seemed the other wanted to know what exactly he wanted with him, a question that the demon only shook his head at lightly as he stared at the entertainment.

"I just want to snuggle and be held is all, but outside of that nothing at all. You're a comfy pillow," he would say rubbing his head slight against the other's arm with his eyes closed and content smile on his face; however, catching himself he would stop as he loosen his grip on the other and moved a bit to look up at the other with a small smile. "Why did you think I wanted something particular? Or was the question your way of telling me to back off?" He would look at the other with light curiosity for the time being.

He would raise an eyebrow. ‘’I could always tie you to the bed so you don’t wander out.’’ Was he serious about that or not? Well, that would be left to personal interpretation for the time being, as it would be the only response given to what the demon had said. He didn’t care for a conversation about naps enough to expand it further by a whole lot.

‘’….I just didn’t have what to do.’’ He didn’t necessarily have something bothering him. In such a case, he tended to be more restless and would more likely be found pacing around or something like that. Right now, it was more of an escape from the thoughts that happened when you were stuck with nothing to do besides thinking about whatever came to mind. Trying to play a game sounded like a better option at that moment. And who knew, maybe he would switch activities soon enough.

‘’I’m not really a pillow though…’’, he would mutter under his breath, a somewhat unfocused expression on his face for a while. He seemed to be thinking about something, though he would blink and sigh lightly when his train of thought got broken by new questions from the other. He would shake his head a bit. ‘’…No..I just, I’m not sure I really understand what this is about. So I thought I’d rather ask than be sorry later.’’ Staying silent wouldn’t have helped him, nor answered anything.

The demon would rub the back of his head and give the other sheepish grin. “You are that determine to keep me in a bed, huh?” He would shake his head with a sleepy grin. “But what if I didn’t want to be in the bed? Would you still tie me down because it is more proper to rest in a bed?” Was he taking what he heard seriously? It was hard to tell, but the curiosity he had for the matter seemed real enough. At least he didn’t seem upset or anything so perhaps the poking was okay.

Regardless of that, the demon would only give a hum and light nod to the next topic not really having much else to add onto what had already been said. Games and other activities could indeed be good distraction or something to do when bored...and honestly there was not much else to it.

That topic gone, the demon would hear the mutter about not being a pillow golden eyes watching the other and his reaction to things. He couldn’t tell what it was, but he knew something was wrong, even when the other told him what he asked wasn’t a sign to back off the demon couldn’t shake the feeling. He would stay where he was for a bit and then quite surprisingly, he’d shift so that he was sitting close to the other, but not leaning on him.

“I guess you’re not,” he would begin before lifting a hand to scratch at his ear as he frowned a bit at the annoying itch. Flicking his ear slightly. He would continue. “Though I don’t think there is anything to understand? It’s just snuggles.” And that was pretty much all that was to it. He liked snuggling and being close to someone, Pretty simple in his head, but perhaps that was what caused the odd feeling to tug at him. Maybe he and the other were on different pages Wouldn’t be a surprise there. In any case, the demon rubbed his eyes as he lean back against the sofa before letting his hands drop as he blinked at the ceiling sleepily. It was no telling where he mind was, but for the moment he had nothing to say.

‘’Unless you had an actually sound reason for moving elsewhere, maybe I would.’’ What makes the difference anyway? He doubted a sofa or such would feel more comfortable all of a sudden, so he wasn’t quite sure what would not staying in bed for your sleep really accomplish in the end. If you’re going to go back to sleep soonish anyway, it seems honestly pointless to move somewhere else and potentially make your sleep less comfortable or even gain some sores for the morning. Sounds like a not very useful habit to practice.

He would frown slightly as he rested his chin on his hand, watching the other in thought. ‘’But…why? I don’t really get the reasoning behind it. I’m pretty sure a human body is far from being as soft as a pillow unless one has enough extra fat to be squishy when you lean on them.’’ Which he was definitely not. More bones than anything else, honestly. ‘’It prevents the other person from moving much, and can also generate too much heat in time.’’ Getting sweaty because someone was plastered against you was not the best feeling in the world. ‘’I just don’t quite understand what supposedly makes it so great.’’ That’s not to say he hated it. He was mostly neutral unless it somehow began to truly bother him due to an unpleasant positioning or it lasting way too long. Besides, he was more or less okay with it when it was in bed or during sleep. That could technically be nice at times. Otherwise though? He was kind of confused about why exactly people seemed to like cuddling up so much. It usually had more cons than pros for him.

The demon would give a small frown at that one. “I may not have a sound reason for why I do what I do, but I think being tied up would certainly be unpleasant. Don’t think I could go to sleep like that…” Well he could, but the sleep wouldn’t be pleasant for things that went beyond just the physical discomfort. That aside, it would seem some silence would fall between them after the demon had moved off of the other.

In the silence, Rika would stare at the ceiling in a slightly zoned out fashion not seeming to notice the other’s movement; however, he seemed to pull himself out whatever zone he was in when the other spoke. To what he heard the demon would stay silent for a moment as he thought about the words, his tail twitching slightly with the thought. However, in time his lips would part.

“I would say the human body isn’t the most comfortable of things and I suppose if handle incorrectly or if overdone any form of physical contact can be a miserable experience; however, I think some tend to ignore the displeasure when they wish to snuggle up to someone they deeply care for. I can’t speak for the world or even explain how it all works, but for me it is something that brings great joy. I don’t seek snuggling from just anyone. I can take a hug here and there, but snuggling is something I reserve for someone I like beyond a friend zone. It is….something special for me and just makes me feel secure, safe, and genuinely at peace.” He would pause a bit shaking his head slightly. “I can’t explain why. It just does...though I have a feeling that if you are asking such questions, then perhaps your view upon the matter is different?” He would tilt his head at the other being relatively calm and more awake than before as he watched the other.

He would shrug. ‘’Then maybe some different way of keeping you there? I don’t know.’’ Besides the fact that moving about for no reason like that seemed somewhat illogical to him, he wasn’t really giving the matter too much deep thought. It probably wasn’t necessary anyway.

Sighing lightly as he pinched the bridge of his nose slightly, he would give the other a blank look for a short moment. ‘’I wouldn’t call it miserable. But to put it loosely, I’d say I don’t particularly care. I don’t really reserve this for anyone at all, for I don’t even have the desire to do it in the first place. It’s just there. I could take it or leave it in most cases.’’ He didn’t feel a whole lot when someone attached themselves to him. Not really. Here and there, he perhaps found it cute or such, but it never really went places to the point he would actively want to go and engage in the activity.

"Some other way, huh?" the demon would repeat as he shook his head lightly. "I think you'd be in for a struggle then." He didn't like to be forced to stay in a spot proper or not and well to be honest sometimes changing location was the only way he could go back to sleep anyway. It may not have been logical, but that is just how his body worked. Sometimes he could sleep soundly, others he would wander to another location to sleep or even just do something else if sleep evaded him. Unless someone planned to knock him unconscious forcing him to be still or stay in one spot wasn't going to be easy. In any case, that matter wasn't important; however, the next one was.

To what was said, the demon would blink at the other a few times a few times before his eyebrows were furrowing as he tried to wrap his sleepy brain around this one.

"So...does that make the cuddler tolerable dead weight when it happens?" The demon being mean or negative with his words and if one paid attention it wasn't hard to tell that he was genuinely trying to understand what he heard. The concept of being numb or just not giving a hoot about things was a bit foreign to him, but he didn't toss it out the window either. He understood everyone wasn't exactly the same.

‘’Who knows.’’ He didn’t plan on trying to anytime soon, unless something forced him to actually do it.

He would huff. ‘’Sometimes? I don’t know. It’s not that simple. Depending on who it is, I may not really mind the person. It’s just that I don’t really feel much towards the act itself, thus there aren’t enough pros for me to purposefully want to do it.’’ He wouldn’t toss the person off of him and be rude about it or such (unless it was someone he barely knew or someone he disliked, of course), but he just didn’t share the sentiment that seemed to be typical of most people. As far as he understood, at least.

Who knew indeed. Regardless the demon wouldn't say much else on the matter as he gave a light hum in response to the short answer he had received. That aside though, the demon would take in what he heard as he rubbed his chin in thought.

"Hmmm..." he would frown as he scratched his head at this. "Well, if you don't feel anything towards it, then...why would you find someone like me interesting? I mean...I know not having cuddles or what not isn't the end of the world, but I have to wonder what is you expect out of me if our views are different there. I guess what I am trying to ask is what do you think on the matter of love and being in relationship?"

He was a bit confused, but then again why wouldn't he be. He wasn't sure if what he did was right or wrong and it was a bit concerning when he heard what he head. If they were on opposite sides of the stick were they even compatible? He couldn't say, but he wasn't falling into despair as for now he just tried to understand so he knew exactly what he was dealing with versus assuming things.

He would blink, leaning against the back of the sofa with a faint frown. ‘’Since when is the validity of a relationship based only on the lovey-dovey stuff anyway? There can be other reasons too. I never said that I don’t enjoy your company in any way, and I do like your looks. As for the love question….I’m going to assume you mean being in love with someone…well, I don’t know. I’m pretty sure I’ve never even had a legitimate crush on anyone in the first place. I cannot answer your question honestly without knowing what love really is from experience. Unless you want me to start spewing theory, but that’s something you can read up on yourself if you wanted to.’’ He knew what the concept was supposed to be, but that was more or less as far as it went. When it came to personal understanding, he didn’t have much of a clue.